Boring

Life has been so boring these few days, not feeling happy at all. No high moments, no fun, no nothing. Life is boring but still got to cherish it no matter what cuz life is fragile. Sian sian sian sian~
Why is my life so boring... oh man~

Today just had my QAAS paper, which me and yensiang studied through the whole damn night yesterday. I started studying at around 11pm?! That explains why i can't do the bloody paper today. Sigh. I can't even think well cuz i was so damn freaking tired that i really needed to pinch myself to keep myself awake. Pui.

I'm just hoping that i can pass this paper so that i do not need to repeat this damn module. Sigh. I hope i can feel a little happier when this exam period is over. Sometimes it feels great to have someone share secrets with you, because this make me feel like i'm trusted. =)

Life ain't that simple as i've thought. Life is complicated. Sometimes people smile at you, but watch your back, i say. I don't know why but, 笑里藏刀 is the scariest weapon on earth, dont you think? There may be someone at one corner of this earth secretly loving you, but there may also be some people secretly cursing you whilst smiling at you. That's why i say life is complicated when you see more and know more. O.O

It's not a good feeling to be just left alone always you know? But there seems to be no other way out but to accept it. Sometimes you just gotta adapt. Used to live a life of friends being around me all the time, joking, laughing, waiting for me for whatever reasons. But no no, no such thing now. Sudden moodiness is such a no-no for me last time, but now? Little actions, little words seem to affect me now i don't know why. Sometimes i feel so unimportant and so friend-less.
Bahhh sometimes things should be left the way it is, life won't be smooth sailing always.

This year will also be sad birthday i guess, will be spent on studying for the stupid maths paper which had to fall on right after the day of my birthday. BOOHOOHOO~
So no celebrations, no nothing. Did had a small celebration with honey during the weekends, but no present cuz he has got no time to get it. I don't blame him cuz he is such a poor baby now, running high on fever and all. Tsk. Went to Black Angus for some steak only and not many pictures cuz you don't expect me to feel happy seeing him so sick eh?

So to sum up, my life is such a bore. I wish i have more close friends around me sometimes. But friends do come and go. Does the problem lies with me?

Sad.

Love,
saddie.